Morning Silence

It’s 7am here in Oklahoma and, for the first time, I am actually up before my son. I am often times awake before Little Man wakes up but never am I actually out of bed being productive in any sort of way. My usual routine is to lay in bed until Little Man begins to wake and then I get up and brush my teeth real quick, splash my face with water and then straight into the nursery. You see, I’m not a morning person. I’m also not a night owl. In my natural state, I am a mid-morning-to-rise and early-to-bed kind of gal…always have been. You can imagine my daily struggle. LOL

I’ve had many other Mompreneurs tell me that they get up before the kids daily and that they are typically the most productive with that brief window of time. Now, I’m sure they are absolutely right! And I can see what they’re talking about. I feel great right now being able to type this blog post with a sleeping baby in the next room. And I’d love to say that I’ll do the same tomorrow. I’d love to say that I’m going to get up 30 minutes before Little Man every day so that I can have my quiet time with the Lord before the daily grind begins. I can certainly try. But, let’s be honest, I’ll probably fail more than I succeed. Not for lack of motivation or desire but, mainly, because trying to get me out of bed before 7am is like trying to pull gum out of your hair. Not to mention, having a husband who could sleep through a tornado sleeping next to you really makes your bed feel extra cozy in the mornings.

So, we will see what tomorrow holds. But, for now, I’m going to enjoy this morning’s peaceful silence and the stillness that currently fills my home. Little Man just so happens to STILL be asleep but, The Husband is now awake. I guess he can only remain in his sleeping-like-a-log state if I’m laying in the bed too. Oh well…

Until next time Mommas 🙂

~entrepreneurmomma

When the Balance is Off

I had a near mompreneur breakdown on Saturday! Erica Weddings had 3 weddings this past weekend. My particular wedding was one of the most difficult weddings I had had in quite some time. For no reason really other than it was just a lot of details to manage. Plus, it was a Nigerian wedding which I had never done before so there was some added pressure and stress in that regard since there were so many elements that were completely new to me. On that note, I had spent many, many hours in the days leading up to the wedding working to prepare. More than I usually do.

Going in to Saturday I was already operating on a Little Man deficit – i.e. I had spent more time away from him over the previous 2 days than I had spent with him. So, about mid- Saturday, it hit me! I missed him like crazy and I knew I wouldn’t see him until Sunday morning. I texted The Husband and told him that I missed Little Man so much that I thought I could cry.

It’s moments like those that make me question my entire working mom status. Was the 16 hours on my feet (without eating and barely drinking anything, mind you), away from my husband and child, worth it? I got caught up in that for a bit but was forced to move on as the wedding moved on.

I don’t think those moments will ever stop coming. They are bound to hit me from time to time. And I keep reminding myself that this particular wedding was an exception to the rule. I don’t typically have to work 16 hours on a Saturday for my usual clientele.

So, Sunday and Monday was all about catching up on my rest and catching up on time with Little Man. We did our usual routine of a Sunday afternoon nap together. It’s pretty much the only time he’ll get somewhat snuggly with me and I just love it!

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And, as far as Monday, I did something I haven’t done in a very long time: I didn’t do a shred of work ALL DAY LONG!!! It meant a bigger to-do list for today but it was worth it.

It all comes back to that work vs. personal life balance that I’ve talked about before. I had let the temporary “imbalance” get to me. It takes a constant conscious effort to make it all work.

Until next time Mommas 🙂

~entrepreneurmomma

Sing-a-Long Time

My head is currently about to explode. For many reasons really. But primarily because A) I’m working feverishly to finish up my timeline for my very large wedding this weekend while ensuring that the TWO additional weddings we have going on this weekend are taken care of by my staff and B) because Little Man is currently sitting in his playpen next to me in my office and has all three of his musical toys playing at once. Yes, I’m simultaneously listening to the ABC’s sung by a stuffed dog, a Mozart classical piece playing on a music box and a song about squares being sung by a stuffed lion.

I mean, I love that my kid loves music. But, please son!

I wish I had more time for a thoughtful blog post this week but it’s just not in the cards right now.

Until next time Mommas 🙂

~entrepreneurmomma

Gettin’ All Personal and Stuff

It’s no secret that praise & worship is a major passion of mine. Singing, leading, participating, etc. – all of it!! And some of my most intimate times with the Lord are had during times of spontaneous worship whether I am the one singing the lyrics or listening to somebody else – whether in a public church service or on my own driving in the car.

As I was scrolling through my Facebook newsfeed this morning I came across a video from a Bethel worship service that was showcasing a recent spontaneous moment of worship. The words were simple, yet powerful enough to give me pause to take it all in: “This is the love that changes everything. He gives it freely.”

Often times we, in our selfish human nature, get so caught up in trying to be the best version of ourselves. We chase after our “destiny” instead of chasing after Him. We seek our “purpose” instead of finding our true purpose in Him. And I think praise & worship affords us the great opportunity of laying OURSELVES down and lifting HIM up. While earthly praise & worship will always be flawed to some degree because we are flawed humans, it is the purest form of God-seeking that I believe exists in the current church.

On a very personal note, there was a period of time not long after Little Man was born when I feared I wouldn’t be back on that stage participating in the praise & worship team. Which, I know, it really shouldn’t matter if I’m on stage singing or in the congregation. But, there’s a certain excitement and fulfillment that comes from being a part of something that you feel called to do!

We were in the middle of a difficult time of transitioning between churches: leaving one church that we had called home and served faithfully in for over 12 years. When that happens you begin to doubt your gut – that thing that told you it was time to move on. But, it’s just like God, to prove himself in a beautifully orchestrated way. We didn’t “shop” for a new church. We had one place we wanted to try and beyond that we had absolutely NO IDEA where else we would go if this place didn’t work out.

Thankfully, it just clicked. Not just that we enjoyed the service and the people, but the timing! Oh, how, perfect God’s timing was for this transition. The Husband and I, unknowingly, came into this new body of believers right in the midst of their own transition on the praise & worship team. This transition left us with an opportunity to jump in with both feet and get involved without delay. The Husband started playing guitar and I joined the vocals team. Since joining this team I have been privileged to be a part of some of the most powerful worship services of my entire life. There’s something about a room full of people all lifting up their praise to Jesus that gives me the chills. And those “chills” are my cue that the Spirit is moving and that song that’s stirring in my heart needs to be sung.

I suppose my encouragement to anyone reading this is to trust your “gut”. Sometimes it’s hard to hear His voice so we do what we think He is telling us to do. But I’m here to tell you that when He wants you to move in a certain direction He will find a way to get you there. The details of why we left our old church home don’t matter. That place will ALWAYS hold a very special place in our hearts and there are people there that we will never stop missing! But, the beauty in the newness of where we are now is refreshing and inspiring and has awakened things in both The Husband and I that have laid dormant for quite some time. Some we never knew were there in the first place.

We are exactly where we need to be: chasing after and seeking HIM and fulfilling our calling in the process.

And, just to be sure we get some Mompreneur stuff in this post, let me clarify that being a part of the praise & worship team is no easy task for a working/business-owning momma. On wedding weekends I work late, sometimes not getting home until 1 or 2 am on Saturday night. But I’m still up by 6:30 to get ready for church, feed Little Man and get him ready, and leave the house in time to be at church by 8:30 for rehearsal. Then it’s rehearsal time where I’m desperately hoping Little Man will catnap in the Ergo…most of the time he does. I drop him in the church nursery before service starts and then I go back to get him after praise & worship ends so that I can nurse him. I wouldn’t have it any other way!

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Until next time Mommas 🙂

~entrepreneurmomma

Mompreneur Tale: Volume 1

There’s nothing quite like your 9 month old son getting his first bloody nose by launching himself into the edge of your desk while you’re on a phone call with a client.

Here’s the scene….

I answer a phone call from my bride for this weekend. Side Note: I rarely answer phone calls while my son is awake…this story just proves why…but exceptions are made when the bride calling is getting married in 48 hours.

While she and I are talking on speakerphone I hear a big thump and I turn to see Little Man face planted into the bottom lip/edge of my desk. As expected, I had about 2 seconds of eery silence as I waited for the ear piercing cry that was about to ensue. I tried to reach my mute button on my phone in time but I failed.

As a mom and a business owner you suffer with that mental tug of war between being heartbroken that your child is hurt but also embarrassment that a client was caught in the cross hairs to be a witness. So, I rushed to get her off the phone by telling her I’d call her back in a few minutes. She heard the crying. I’m certain she understood. But still, the businesswoman in me hates that I had to do that.

As I picked Little Man up, I notice his nose is bleeding. This must have been some fall, I tell ya!

Five minutes later, Little Man is hardly phased. But GOD FORBID I try to clean the dried blood from his face. Good grief kid!!

I called my bride back within a few minutes while Little Man sat on my lap with his paci in his mouth, still sniffling from the remnant tears. Life goes on, right?

Anyway, that’s my textbook Mompreneur moment of the day. What a crazy life we lead!

And now the kid doesn’t want to be anywhere except on my lap which makes writing blog posts very hard as he’s constantly reaching for the keyboard.

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P.S. I’m anticipating many more tales like this to come. Look for Volume 2 to be posted sooner rather than later.

Until next time Mommas 🙂

~entrepreneurmomma

When It Rains, It Pours

I could say I mean this literally considering the amount of rain and bad weather Oklahoma has gotten recently. But, for the sake of this blog post, I’m talking figuratively.

Where shall I begin?

…my business email is only functioning at about 50% right now

…my outdoor wedding this weekend is having to be restructured due to recent and impending rain (pair this with the email issue and you might catch a glimpse of my current state of frustration!!)

Shall I go on?

…I am struggling with a head cold

…which I have now passed on to Little Man

…to make matters worse, Little Man is teething

…therefore, Little Man is sleeping minimally

Can somebody please pass me an adult beverage laced with Nyquil? Nevermind, I’m breastfeeding. Sigh.

That is all, my friends. That. Is. All.

Until next time Mommas 🙂

~entrepreneurmomma

The 11th Commandment

Thous shalt sleep! <—-Don’t we wish God had included this for us tired working mommas? Perhaps, then, we wouldn’t feel so guilty for collapsing in bed whilst the house remains a mess in one way or another.

This past weekend has always been a big one for my family. The Husband and I have our anniversary on May 8th which often coincides with Mother’s Day Weekend. Speaking of that, it was my first Mother’s Day!!

On Friday we both took a 1/2 day off of work to celebrate our anniversary. We started by getting up early and going to breakfast with Little Man. Then we came home and got him down for a good nap while we tied up some loose ends in our respective jobs. Then we spent the afternoon as a family at the zoo.

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Can we talk about the awesomeness of baby-wearing for a minute?! I don’t wear Little Man crazy often…just when it’s necessary for convenience. But, when he’s sick of the stroller and it’s nap time and you’re nowhere near his crib, the Ergo is a God-send!! I may not have gotten his usual 75-90 minute nap out of him but 10 minutes against my chest and he was out like a light for a quick 20 minute power nap – just enough to take away the crankiness. 

After the zoo, we loaded Little Man up and dropped him off at the grandparents’ house for a sleepover. The Husband and I had big plans for a nice dinner out and then going to a movie (which we pre-purchased our tickets for).

Dinner was great. Too great! We both got in the car after leaving the restaurant and just sighed in exhaustion. Now, it probably didn’t help that I had 2 lemon drop martinis with dinner but, we were celebrating! Nonetheless, we were totally lame and went and got our movie tickets refunded and headed home…to SLEEP!!! No joke, we were in bed by 8:10. I had to wake up at 9:30pm to pump but I was right back to bed by 10pm.

How is it that having children is so exhausting? People, I have a baby that has been sleeping through the night since he was 12 weeks old. I know, I know…some of you probably hate me for saying that 🙂 But, seriously, he sleeps 11-12 hours on his own every night. So, I wonder why I’m this tired. I feel guilty for being this tired when my baby sleeps as much as he does. Especially since I go to bed myself at a decent hour (10-11pm) most nights. But, being a mom, I just accept that this is the way it is. The day in, day out of caring for him, attending to his needs, entertaining him, feeding him, you name it – It’s easy for us to forget that mental exhaustion is REAL! And too much of it leads to physical exhaustion. I suppose there needs to be a balance so as to avoid this exhaustion. And being a working mom makes it really hard to find the right balance of exerting your mental capacity for your work and for your child without letting it take a toll on your body and, frankly, your marriage.

I’m not saying I have the answer. But, I am saying that I recognize this and am going to try better. So that maybe next year when The Husband and I celebrate our anniversary we can manage to stay awake long enough to watch a movie together!

I think part of the solution is building in time to our day to do something for ourselves. Even if it’s just 30 minutes to take a hot bath or to sit on the back porch and read a book. Sometimes this really helps me relax and, in turn, makes me a better wife, mother and business owner. I just need to get better at making time for this on a daily basis. Here’s hoping!

Until next time Mommas 🙂

~entrepreneurmomma