World’s Okayest Mom

This is how I felt for the past 2 weeks. I’ve been so busy keeping up with clients that I felt like I was barely keeping up with motherhood. And forget about domestic responsibilities – thankfully The Husband managed several loads of laundry last weekend while I was working a big wedding.

Last week was so busy with drop-ins at the wedding venue that I was unable to plan them or estimate how long they’d take, thereby, planning for childcare was next to impossible. So, I deemed it simplest to just take Little Man along. The venue staff came to know me as the lady with the baby on her chest because I was wearing him in the Ergo for hours on end while I was there.

And, now that Little Man is officially mobile, he has limited interest in being confined to his playpen or the jumper while I’m working in the office. So, much of my time in the office last week looked like this…

FullSizeRender

This is what “Mom, I’m done bouncing up and down in the same spot…Okay, son, for the love, I just need to finish this email so sit here on the ground and play with some toys that are not age appropriate as long as it keeps you quiet for 2 more minutes!!” looks like.

I survived and this week is much less chaotic so I’m trying to earn back some momma points by getting in a lot more Momma + Little Man quality time.

For fun here’s a pic from my wedding last weekend. The groom is one of the coaches for the Philadelphia Eagles so the mascot partied with the guests at the reception. This picture was moments before Swoop entered the reception and surprised the guests! My job really IS fun even though it keeps my plate full!!

IMG_0749

Until next time Mommas 🙂

~entrepreneurmomma

Gettin’ All Personal and Stuff

It’s no secret that praise & worship is a major passion of mine. Singing, leading, participating, etc. – all of it!! And some of my most intimate times with the Lord are had during times of spontaneous worship whether I am the one singing the lyrics or listening to somebody else – whether in a public church service or on my own driving in the car.

As I was scrolling through my Facebook newsfeed this morning I came across a video from a Bethel worship service that was showcasing a recent spontaneous moment of worship. The words were simple, yet powerful enough to give me pause to take it all in: “This is the love that changes everything. He gives it freely.”

Often times we, in our selfish human nature, get so caught up in trying to be the best version of ourselves. We chase after our “destiny” instead of chasing after Him. We seek our “purpose” instead of finding our true purpose in Him. And I think praise & worship affords us the great opportunity of laying OURSELVES down and lifting HIM up. While earthly praise & worship will always be flawed to some degree because we are flawed humans, it is the purest form of God-seeking that I believe exists in the current church.

On a very personal note, there was a period of time not long after Little Man was born when I feared I wouldn’t be back on that stage participating in the praise & worship team. Which, I know, it really shouldn’t matter if I’m on stage singing or in the congregation. But, there’s a certain excitement and fulfillment that comes from being a part of something that you feel called to do!

We were in the middle of a difficult time of transitioning between churches: leaving one church that we had called home and served faithfully in for over 12 years. When that happens you begin to doubt your gut – that thing that told you it was time to move on. But, it’s just like God, to prove himself in a beautifully orchestrated way. We didn’t “shop” for a new church. We had one place we wanted to try and beyond that we had absolutely NO IDEA where else we would go if this place didn’t work out.

Thankfully, it just clicked. Not just that we enjoyed the service and the people, but the timing! Oh, how, perfect God’s timing was for this transition. The Husband and I, unknowingly, came into this new body of believers right in the midst of their own transition on the praise & worship team. This transition left us with an opportunity to jump in with both feet and get involved without delay. The Husband started playing guitar and I joined the vocals team. Since joining this team I have been privileged to be a part of some of the most powerful worship services of my entire life. There’s something about a room full of people all lifting up their praise to Jesus that gives me the chills. And those “chills” are my cue that the Spirit is moving and that song that’s stirring in my heart needs to be sung.

I suppose my encouragement to anyone reading this is to trust your “gut”. Sometimes it’s hard to hear His voice so we do what we think He is telling us to do. But I’m here to tell you that when He wants you to move in a certain direction He will find a way to get you there. The details of why we left our old church home don’t matter. That place will ALWAYS hold a very special place in our hearts and there are people there that we will never stop missing! But, the beauty in the newness of where we are now is refreshing and inspiring and has awakened things in both The Husband and I that have laid dormant for quite some time. Some we never knew were there in the first place.

We are exactly where we need to be: chasing after and seeking HIM and fulfilling our calling in the process.

And, just to be sure we get some Mompreneur stuff in this post, let me clarify that being a part of the praise & worship team is no easy task for a working/business-owning momma. On wedding weekends I work late, sometimes not getting home until 1 or 2 am on Saturday night. But I’m still up by 6:30 to get ready for church, feed Little Man and get him ready, and leave the house in time to be at church by 8:30 for rehearsal. Then it’s rehearsal time where I’m desperately hoping Little Man will catnap in the Ergo…most of the time he does. I drop him in the church nursery before service starts and then I go back to get him after praise & worship ends so that I can nurse him. I wouldn’t have it any other way!

IMG_0299

Until next time Mommas 🙂

~entrepreneurmomma

The 11th Commandment

Thous shalt sleep! <—-Don’t we wish God had included this for us tired working mommas? Perhaps, then, we wouldn’t feel so guilty for collapsing in bed whilst the house remains a mess in one way or another.

This past weekend has always been a big one for my family. The Husband and I have our anniversary on May 8th which often coincides with Mother’s Day Weekend. Speaking of that, it was my first Mother’s Day!!

On Friday we both took a 1/2 day off of work to celebrate our anniversary. We started by getting up early and going to breakfast with Little Man. Then we came home and got him down for a good nap while we tied up some loose ends in our respective jobs. Then we spent the afternoon as a family at the zoo.

IMG_0293

Can we talk about the awesomeness of baby-wearing for a minute?! I don’t wear Little Man crazy often…just when it’s necessary for convenience. But, when he’s sick of the stroller and it’s nap time and you’re nowhere near his crib, the Ergo is a God-send!! I may not have gotten his usual 75-90 minute nap out of him but 10 minutes against my chest and he was out like a light for a quick 20 minute power nap – just enough to take away the crankiness. 

After the zoo, we loaded Little Man up and dropped him off at the grandparents’ house for a sleepover. The Husband and I had big plans for a nice dinner out and then going to a movie (which we pre-purchased our tickets for).

Dinner was great. Too great! We both got in the car after leaving the restaurant and just sighed in exhaustion. Now, it probably didn’t help that I had 2 lemon drop martinis with dinner but, we were celebrating! Nonetheless, we were totally lame and went and got our movie tickets refunded and headed home…to SLEEP!!! No joke, we were in bed by 8:10. I had to wake up at 9:30pm to pump but I was right back to bed by 10pm.

How is it that having children is so exhausting? People, I have a baby that has been sleeping through the night since he was 12 weeks old. I know, I know…some of you probably hate me for saying that 🙂 But, seriously, he sleeps 11-12 hours on his own every night. So, I wonder why I’m this tired. I feel guilty for being this tired when my baby sleeps as much as he does. Especially since I go to bed myself at a decent hour (10-11pm) most nights. But, being a mom, I just accept that this is the way it is. The day in, day out of caring for him, attending to his needs, entertaining him, feeding him, you name it – It’s easy for us to forget that mental exhaustion is REAL! And too much of it leads to physical exhaustion. I suppose there needs to be a balance so as to avoid this exhaustion. And being a working mom makes it really hard to find the right balance of exerting your mental capacity for your work and for your child without letting it take a toll on your body and, frankly, your marriage.

I’m not saying I have the answer. But, I am saying that I recognize this and am going to try better. So that maybe next year when The Husband and I celebrate our anniversary we can manage to stay awake long enough to watch a movie together!

I think part of the solution is building in time to our day to do something for ourselves. Even if it’s just 30 minutes to take a hot bath or to sit on the back porch and read a book. Sometimes this really helps me relax and, in turn, makes me a better wife, mother and business owner. I just need to get better at making time for this on a daily basis. Here’s hoping!

Until next time Mommas 🙂

~entrepreneurmomma